What Happen?

What happen? i don't know what happening since 31/8/2010. It was a "180 degree" change. No one can ever expect including me. Well, not myself changed, it was someone else. I wonder ...am I did something wrong? I confuse about what you thinking. Why women always make things to be complicated? Is it fun?  I don't think so. Just wanna point out that don't ever try fooling on me and playing with my feel. I do have experience too in this kind of stuff. Come on. I never regret when I want someone get out of my life. Hmm.... speechless d la... swt swt....zzz

MISS YOU WITHOUT REASON

I hope i wont like u so much... but i cant...

I hope i wont miss u so much... but i cant...

I hope i wont think on u so much... but i cant...

I hope our distance can be nearer... but i cant...

I hope we can stay together forever ... but we cant...

Complicated case!!!!!!

2nd time

Happy Moment

缘分？

WEBCAM- 1st time for us

1.5 year ago, we met each other. Lost contact for bout 1.5 year too. After that we meet again via internet. you r so beautiful 2 me. Feel exited till cant slp tat nite. LIK A SOH LOU> Hope i can control myself as well coz... duno y pun..=.=!!

Distance

A LONG WAY TO DESTINATION

Distance is a numerical description of how far apart objects are. In physics or everyday discussion, distance may refer to a physical length, or an estimation based on other criteria (e.g. "two counties over"). In mathematics, a distance function or metric is a generalization of the concept of physical distance. This is the definition of DISTANCE from Wikipedia. For me, I can view distance in a different perspective where it was not just merely a physical or a mathematical term. It brings another type of  meaning to me. Distance indeed is a love obstruction. It can break those unstable and concrete love although in the era of technology such as msn, fb, phone.. bla bla bla... Next,  it can be a tool to lie among our friends, partners or even families as distance prohibits us from viewing each other. Lastly, it is a waste of time and money. Why? i think no need 2 explain so much here. So should i hate distance? Nope, coz sometimes i think distance is freedom and can have some privacy. Dun you feel weird when u do somethings there are people just stand beside you nearly? SWT... Certain things just like distance really contradict with what i mention in the beginning. Now i realize i should see things in all perspectives and not only in 1 way. Everything has its pros' and cons'. This attitude should be inspired to continue my life in university and future. ^.^ In fact, I still need walk a long distance to be graduated. OMG>> To be continue......

The 8th Day!

It is the 8th day we change our relationship. Honestly, I always still thinking of you especially at night. Why?  Am I still loving you? Honestly, more or less.... the feel of loving you still will be there.. but, maybe it was another kind of love. There are many kind of love ya? So as a conclusion, I will say out loudly I will LOVE YOU forever and i never forget you no matter in what circumstances. I want to point out that I never regret 2 be with you for the past half year time, it was so precious and memorable. But I just need  to make out a painful choice and accept the truth. Hope me & you happy in every moment. Any problem you may come and approach me, I will lend my hand and treat you sincerely out of my heart! !

明了

我渴望拥有你和你有最近的距离
黑暗的夜里我看见你只是想你
我怎么爱过你
直到一切无能为力
你觉察不到对你 的爱已很少
我不曾知道爱情那么重要
我永远得不到夜里怎么熬
你不会知道
为了你我付出多少
我已经要让你看到我有多好
爱 要怎么才明了
我怎么难过你才会知道
想你的夜里整一颗心不停燃烧
爱要怎么才明了
难道爱你都不需要
爱已不重要

心已经慢慢清醒
我闭上了眼睛
我已经看到黎明
从此我谁都不相信。。。

SLEEP

Recently, sleeping is a difficult task for me. What am i thinking? Why i cant sleep as many normal people? Why i cant sleep before 12? What wrong with me? Am i stress? Am i unhappy? Am i worry for something? Or else i have sickness? This all sort of problems and question marks always appear in my mind. But there is another special reason, i m not sure whether it was the factor that causing this, but i can tell you, indeed, it is a fact. I m missing someone very much. I hope my problem can be solve, can u tel me how??? Anyone know how.....?

LOOKED MATCH?

Are we looked match? The answer what i get was "match!" Lol... Yes, i thought so. However, i also hope we not only looked match. REALITY is always cruel. I cant said that we are totally not match, yet, i have to state that there are a lot differences among us, it is an undeniable truth. You are rich, but i m not. Delightedly, so far it was not a problem for me and you. I believe that "choose a good reputation over great riches, for being held in high esteem is better than having silver and gold". This is what the Bible say. Next, as what my mom said, you are not clever in study. I wont care, as long as you clever to make me happy. Now, the main point, she cant accept you. The largest obstruction for me. 1 day, this can be the reason why we seperate from each other with all kinds of sadness. Many people will ask, why be 2gather if you already know the final ending? Isn't wasting your time? NO! My answer is simple, cause I LOVE HER. I cant stop myself for loving her even a second.... Why? I dunno. Love sometimes is unexplainable. Maybe if I can control my feeling, the sad ending can be prevented. Sure. Should I thanks God for give me a chance to know her? I also not clear about this. I will appreciate every second with you. I hope we still can be friend after we...... At least dun be enemy. Do u know my feeling now?  Dunno is fine. Let all the stress and unhapiness and sorrow keep in my heart.

第二次爱你- 张敬轩

忘記你我從前過失　仍是記著某日相約密碼
跟你再次促膝　你愛聽藍調未變吧
讓我再你去演奏更好嗎

呼吸到從前舊氣氛　重拾初秋時份驚險的接吻
你態度像疑問　或者翻新的愛太驚震
 

若是愛你必須分兩次　望著缺口都不必介意
你的好處　加短處　更吸引再開始
就是有點天真不理智　就是夠膽接受多一次
加倍落力讓我捉緊你手　到底失去第一次 

曾放棄你遺忘某些　曾共你在某日觀看綠野
跟我地鐵迫車　再踫上為何沒對話
讓我看著你已解脫了牽掛

撫摸到從前舊氣氛　沿著海灘重踏消失的腳印
你的態度像疑問　或者翻新的愛太驚震

The Third Sunday

As usual, early in the morning i had 2 wake up. ( around 815am) as i have to go for prayer in my church. And as usual too, the sermon given by the man was damn boring..It tended to make me "faint" and without any consciousness. I m waiting time 2 pass.... Before i really faint, it dismissed. Well, is time 2 have a happy time wit her. It was a  special day. I walked with her while my bro and 1 of my friend following us from behind... This kind of feel really ridiculous. But no choice.... I eat with her wit 1 of friend too...but i can understand his feel la....lol... quite sucks i thought so 2 be a spotlight. For those who not yet watch "orang besi 2" pls dun being trapped.... It was boring and vapid. Sadly, our "secret place" was disappeared. But i enjoy our adventurous journey, no matter in photo machine or fitting room...hehe. Yet, i love the hp chain she gave very much....nice! Sometimes i really hope Sunday can be never end....dun laugh...I know i m dreaming.....!

夜

夜已深，还有什么人？
她睡了
我却难以入眠
想她吗？是！
有时女人真的是令人捉摸不透
她的态度 我不明 生气？懊恼？嫉妒？担心？还是累了？
还是我做错了什么？
想不到除了学业外 ，这方面也会带给我压力
算吧，也不是第一次了
也许，是我最认真的一次？
不懂
但到目前为止，不能没有她。
夜更深，还有什么人？
有人，我的好朋友。
你永远都是陪我到最夜的那一位。
辛苦了，感激不尽。
够了。睡了。晚安。

前言

1991年5月第10天，我第一次对他们眨了眨眼，来到了这个充满悲欢喜乐的世界。我也不懂为何会写博客，太闷，太空闲？也许吧。想了一阵子，还是用华语好，对不起，英文太水皮了，难免在表达方面出现问题。我想我应该会在这里写一些我的生活点滴吧，当然还有一些精彩故事和我的个人观点。不过，相信很多人都领教过我的文采有多好，而我的原则是看得明和有意思就好啦，不好意思哦。但。。一切还言之过早，我是怕我没什么耐心写下去。那惟有拭目以待啦！